We Could Have Been

Wouldn't it have been easier,
if we'd set our ego aside?
Wouldn't it have been better,
if we'd spoken our minds out?
Wouldn't it have been less harder,
if you hadn't been such an ignorant?
Would it have happened then,
if you'd answered my call?

Would I be out of my mind,
if I tell you that we
could have been so much more?

wound

all this time she was still there
wondering what went wrong
stay put in her past
as if that's where she belongs

but she didn't know
that staying there
is like pulling off the scabs
of a healing wound

untukmu yang masih dalam benak

lima puluh satu hari telah berlalu

tapi tak ada yang berubah padaku

hati ini masih mengharapkanmu

rindu ini masih mengelukan namamu

suara hujan yang kini terdengar

membawaku kembali pada malam itu
bulan dan bintang tak tampak
langit tertutup awan mendung
namun apa peduliku tentang langit
jika kau ada di hadapanku

aku ingat senyumanmu saat itu
menenangkan,

layaknya matahari terbenam

menghipnotis siapapun yang melihat

melegakan,

seakan-akan mengingatkan

bahwa aku tidak jatuh cinta sendirian

"It's been a while but I still feel the same,

maybe I should let you go..."

- Ed Sheeran, Give Me Love 

try

In the past few months I was working on my essays that were supposed to be submitted in December and January, but I never finished them. Not that I don't want to, but I was afraid. I'm always afraid of rejection and I can't stand it.

I know opportunities are rare and they don't usually come back when we blow it away. But a lot of times I've been questioning myself if I was ever good enough to take them. There are always people that are better than me. And even if I do get that opportunity, would I be ready?

results always scare me.

I was so afraid of falling, I didn't even move.
I am so afraid of failing, I don't even try.

Cruise

Life is like a cruise

You may have planned where you're going,
and how to reach it,
but storms come with or without warning

Once in life you might have found someone
and you thought they would stick around
always..

But time went by,
and they left you

Once in life you might have done your biggest efforts,
but the results you got
weren't what you wished for

Just like that,
and you're shipwrecked

But in the end, it's a choice
Whether you would try again,
and rebuild your ship
Or maybe just stay put,
and go down with it