try

In the past few months I was working on my essays that were supposed to be submitted in December and January, but I never finished them. Not that I don't want to, but I was afraid. I'm always afraid of rejection and I can't stand it.

I know opportunities are rare and they don't usually come back when we blow it away. But a lot of times I've been questioning myself if I was ever good enough to take them. There are always people that are better than me. And even if I do get that opportunity, would I be ready?

results always scare me.

I was so afraid of falling, I didn't even move.
I am so afraid of failing, I don't even try.